So This Is The New Year

dip-red

I had given 2017 at least a solid twenty days before making my final assessment on it’s progression. I invariably overanalyze that last week of December each year to the degree of partial insanity, or at least that’s what my temporary seasonal dramatics make me feel like in the interim.

2016 was unequivocally the worst of my 27 full years, granted the first few years of my life weren’t quite memorable yet, but surely nothing too negatively vital of importance took place then. I’ll never know, I was a little one, but there’s photo proof that those years were a hoot, aside from the broken leg at age two. Last year wasn’t just miserable because of politics or because another year lapsed and I still hadn’t found that favorite ring of mine. I mean, you can only pray to St. Anthony so many times for lost things before you truly have to just give up and move on. It was a deplorable year for far divergent reasons. I fought like hell for myself, I challenged myself. For what felt like the very first time, I, in a genuine fashion, allowed myself to be truly selfish in a positive way. Sounds like an oxymoron, but as a matter of fact, it was in the form of empowerment, devotedly focusing on myself, applying all the time possible to surpass my weaknesses.

I evoked a desire to improve, not that this craving was new, but afore, I wasn’t strong enough or didn’t trust that I was. Slowly but surely I was making the calls taking the steps to ultimately funnel myself to the path of cerebral success.

The best analogy I can compare this pathway to is going bowling. You opt to get those bumpers put up to lessen your odds of failure, primarily because you have been down on luck. There is no guarantee will you knock all the pins down in the first few rolls, but that’s not the point. Wether your bowling ball bounces off the bumper 45 times down the lane or wether you roll a strait shot down the middle, the ball with eventually reach the pins either way. You’ll still get there, I will still get there. I am getting there. You rarely get there seemlessly in the first few attempts. But, we will get there.

So with a new year, 25 days deep, and last year’s lessons, learnings and staggering growth, I am hopeful for prosperity, self-motivated and hard-earned victory. I know I deserve it.

I’ve have been known to succumb when darkness prevails, but no longer will I falter.

Advertisements

4 thoughts on “So This Is The New Year

  1. Good for you! I mean it! That’s great that you’re starting out the new year with new energy focused on self preservation. It’s such an important lesson to learn as adults. Too often we become complacent with life and put off those things we should do for ourselves. For me, it’s taking a nap on the weekends. I was never a napper. At least not until about a year ago. Now every Saturday and/or Sunday, I nap when my two year old naps. I wake up refreshed and rested. I’ve learned that my body needs that extra sleep to rejuvenate so why should I deprive myself of that rest simply because I’m an adult with important things to do. I’ve found that I do adulating much more efficiently when I’m well rested. Stick with it. Try to do something every day that brings you one step closer to your goal.

    Like

  2. Capturing the personal struggle for transparency is the first step in the right direction. Even when times seem dim keep your mind on the positive for this will lead you to light! Great post keep it going!

    Like

  3. Depression is easy… doing something meaningful is hard. That’s something I try to remind myself every day… and writing blog posts on that topic definitely helps.

    So, as you say – keep going. There really is no alternative as giving up only makes you feel worse in the long run.

    Like

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out / Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out / Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out / Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out / Change )

Connecting to %s